One of my favorite pastimes: jeepney ride

I just came from a very chaotic but healthy jeepney ride! Call me weird but I find jeepney ride healthy. It’s what keeps my sanity intact (if there’s any). I love it maybe because it gives me the feeling that I am moving, that I can think freely and change the world by just sitting there, or I can travel by just sitting there. I see the passengers like people come and go. That’s very common in each of our lives. People come, people go. So when you ride a jeepney, its like reality through your imaginative power. More than those I mentioned, it feels so refreshing. When I come out from a brainstorming class and I feel so heavy sometimes I just want to feel carefree and unburdened. And there goes my jeepney ride.

Life had been so tough for me. And I feel there’s a need for more pastimes! Well, that’s aside from feeding tilapia in the lagoon area, riding on a swinging seat on kids playground, eating ice cream like a kid, and playing the music out loud. And of course, going to a mall with only 100 peso bill to buy a less than 100 peso book from booksale. Yes, it shows, I’m the only law student in the world who have so many free time. Very scary. (laugh) 

Talking about books, lately I’ve been more interested with SHARK’s books but I can’t afford them. Law books don’t have drawings, same with other famous books. (I need some color and creativity!) Unluckily, every time I visit Booksale I can’t find any of them. I’m done with Alice Walker. I’ve collected all of her books and they’re so easy to be seen in Booksale. Alice Walker is great, she remains one of my favorites. But since she’s so deep and heavy and I could never be as good as her, now I find SHARK more appealing to me. I think Walker’s “A Way Forward is With a Broken Heart” is heavier than Shark’s “Eat Mangoes Naked.” It’s easier to eat mangoes naked than moving forward with a broken heart! What do you think? It’s also one  great idea for a pastime. Besides, I haven’t eaten mangoes for a while. Hmmmmnn. Interesting.

Published in: on September 10, 2010 at 12:51 am  Comments (2)  

What’s New and What’s Old?

After visiting my old email attached to this site and discovered a comment from a lost reader who bumped to this old abandoned blog, somehow, the desire to write started to build again. It’s really hard to gather thoughts, put them into writing, most specially if you’ve been through the hardest times of your life. Yes, for the first time I admit, I still feel devastated with the death of my father. I still madly couldn’t accept the fact that it only took him 3 months to live after he was diagnosed of cancer. Yes, I’m mad and I bleed and I just miss my father so much.

Alright, what’s new and what’s old? I don’t know why my fingers came to type this words. Perhaps my instinct is driving me to something my mind hadn’t even  pondered upon. Yeah, what’s new and what’s old? … I can’t figure out. Really.

I’m sitting in the dark corner of my dormitory room. The clock reads 1:32am. I try to believe that this isn’t one of those sleepless nights. I was trying to finish my Powerpoint presentation for a report and failed so I ended up browsing old things, including my old email.  Aside from the comment thing from a lost reader  I mentioned earlier, I found an old letter from an old friend which reminded me that after all these months of trying to pretend that I’m okay, I forgot that I missed a lot of happenings in my life. Just after Papa’s cremation, I went back to a call center job and  immediately enrolled in law school for my third year. I never had really given myself the time to mourn. Maybe the reason  until now I wasn’t able to properly move on.

Well maybe writing again would help me vent my unheard emotions and release the hidden pain  within me. Honestly, I miss this. Haven’t done this for a long time and it feels new writing on an old blog again.. 

To jessforget: thanks for the comment. 😀

Published in: on September 9, 2010 at 5:00 am  Comments (2)